Friday, January 6, 2012

yellow ledbetter

Unsealed, on a porch a letter sat
Then you said, "I wanna leave it again"
Once I saw her on a beach of weathered sand
And on the sand I wanna leave her again

On a weekend I wanna wish it all away, yeah
And they called and I said that I'll go
And I said that I'll call out again
And the reason I ought ta leave her calm, I know
I said, "I don't know whether I'm the boxer or the bag"

Oh yeah, can you see them, out on the porch?
Yeah, but they don't wave
I see them 'round the front way, yeah
And I know, and I know I don't wanna stay
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/yellow-ledbetter-lyrics-pearl-jam.html ]

Make me cry

I see oh, I don't know why there's something else
I want to, wanna drum it all away
I said, "I don't, I don't know whether I was the boxer or the bag"

Oh yeah, can you see them, out the on porch?
Yeah, but they don't wave
I see them 'round the front way
And I know, and I know I don't want to stay at all
I don't want to stay
I don't want to stay
I don't want to stay
I don't, I don't want to stay

Sunday, January 9, 2011

10012011

haha, aq xtau nk tulis apa sbnarnya.. tp tadi ade org text aq katanya nga baca blog aq ni.. huhu. alahai, lau dia baca apa yang aq tulis sblum2 ni, aq harap sgt die pk yang aq ni bodoh.. hoho. lau aq nk cta sal awek yang aq sayang dulu, hurm. sapa yang phm.. yang aq tau skarang aq pon die xknal..
orang kata, in love, happiness is always the best revemge... tu lah yang aq tga wat skang.. btw, aq pon xpk da sal die.. slagi aq pk sal die, wat aq sakit ati.. dats 4 sure lah kan, tu bukan love kan.. so i'm still chasing my happiness.
tanpa aq sedar yang happiness yang aq cari slama ni kan, slalu muncul pabila aq rasa ilang smangat. untuk "awak!!" saya nak bagitau, dengan awk, hati saya xpnah gusar, hati saya xpnah kacau, dengan awak, saya gumbira, dengan awak hati saya tenang dengan awak, saya sbanarnya jumpa satu prasaan yang saya xpnah rasa sblum ni.. u'r d one who r alway stay wif me xkira apa. saya xtau apa prasaan awk bila awk bca blog saya, saya suka if u r jeleous. tp saya xsuka kalau awk ckp saya sayang kan die sorang saja. perasaan sayang ni perlu jadi dalam 2 arah. saya dan dia. kalau saya sayang dia, tp bukan sbaliknya, sayang tu x kmana dan lama2 hilang la sayang tuh.. tp dengan awak, saya xpnah paham, pnah k awk sayang saya? pnah k awk cintakan saya? tp awk sangat ambil brat ttng saya. saya jd sayang kat awak, tapi takot untuk saya sayangkan awk. saya xtau saya nk buat apa? mungkin saya takot dengan kekecewaan lg ataupon saya juz xbrani nk bgtau awk.

untuk "awak!!"
saya da knal awak masa saya form5 n masa tuh awk form 4 kan. saya ingat lagi, mcm mana saya mnt kat awk masa tuh, tp saya tau saya xshnsem budak2 yang ade dlm klas tu.. tambahan pulak saya punya projk apa j, awk punya pon lagi advance dr saya. tp pnah skali saya jumpa masa yang sesuai untuk saya tgor awk. tapi saya ingat, saya takot sangat masa tuh, tuhan aj yang tau prasaan saya kat awk masa tuh..
masa tuh saya jadi xly pk, patot k xpatot saya tolong awk angkat aquarium tu masa tuh. last2 saya jd bodoh sbb saya nk blagak cool. tp saya xly lwn keinginan saya nk mngenali awk. nak taknak tpaksa la saya guna cara kotor. saya mntak no awk dr org lain. maafkan la saya awk ea. ps tu saya ingat saya boly contact awk. hubungan kita msra kan awk? saya pon xpasti. bagi saya mungkin tu satu permulaan cerita ntuk saya dan awak. kita jumpa lagi kat u kan wak..
xsangka saya, awk ty pndapat saya ttg spc.. huhu masa tu awk ckp nk jd doktor kan? kalau xsilap saya la wak, tp smntara nk tunggu offer ntuk medic tu awk dtg tmpat saya blaja, buat foundation kat cni.
saya suka sangat, masa tu, happynya saya, haisy tuhan aj yang tau. saya slalu tpk, yang saya boly la lpk ngn awk j, hati saya akan snang bila saya ngan awk, tp saya xpnah tpikir yang tu sbnarnya satu prasaan yang sangat pnting dlm bercinta. tp last2 say ade buat bnda yang awk xsuka. saya mntak maaf sangat2 wak. walaupun kta da break n jadi kawan, awk still stia ngn saya kan wak. awk sntiasa ade bila saya rasa glisah.
trima kasih awk. lps saya putus ngn awk, ya, saya ade kapel ngn org lain, n btul saya gmbira, tp hati saya xtnang, hati saya rasa mcm ssuatu masih xcukup lagi. n bila saya ptus, kkcewaan saya btmbah2. sdangkan bila saya pk balik, saya ngn dia hanya ade knangan satu j. tp dengan awk? xtrkira... saya mungkin kcewa, heartbreak, tp satu yang saya phm, kami xpnah memahami antara satu sama lain. kami xpnah srasi. maafkan saya awk.. maafkan saya sbb saya xstia dengan cinta saya pada awk. tp yang pasti, sayang saya kat org lain bole saya hilangkan. tp awk, susa saya nk lupakan. jauh dsudut hati saya still ade awak. saya xpnah nmpak. skarang saya sdar apa yang xckop dalam hubungan saya, cinta. saya sayangkan seseorang, tp saya xcintakan die. saya xpnah phm cinta sblum ni. smua kata2 cinta saya sblum ni hanya kata2. tapi bila saya sdar, cinta tu mcm brkawan. kalau saya brcita tapi saya takut kalau dia tinggalkan saya, tu bukan cinta, tp tu satu prasaan ego yang xmau trima kekalahan. saya snang dengan awak. saya sayangkan awk, dan saya suka tgk awk bahagia. itulah cinta wak. saya cintakan awk, tp xsmstinya awk prlukan saya untuk bahagia, tp saya bahagia bila saya tau awk bahagia. saya akan bahagia kalau awak sntiasa ade dsamping saya. maafkan saya kalau post ni mgganggu idop awk. tapi satu yang pasti, hadir awak dalam hidup saya, sangat saya hargai dan kalau awak sudi buka hati awak ntuk say balik, saya pasti, dats will be the most wonderfull thing ever happen in my life.

buat smua, aq nk ckp yang jangan lah obses dengan orang yang kita suka, hayati dan dengar apa yang sbanarnya yang kita mahu. jang kita kjar orang yang kita suka, sbb tanpa kita sedar, bukan itu yang kita mahukan. love isn't bout lust, isn't bout what people think but it is all bout ourself. nak aq katakan, love starts with honest and will end with honest.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

aq asa nk mnulis sesuatu, tapi aq malas nk mnulis, lain kali la aq mnulis.. aite.. haha

Monday, January 3, 2011

taon baru azam baru..

assalamu'alaikum.. haha, aq da lama gla x update.. sumpah, aq x smpat nk wat.. ingat nk matikan cmtu j xsmapai ati la pulakkan..
btw, la kita b'cakap pasal taon baru, yg terlintas dpkiran masing2 azam baru. nak tanya sikit la kan, lam 100 orang yang set azam baru diorang ni, bapa org j btul2 ikhlas nak smpurnakan azam baru tuh..? dalam yang ikhlas tu pulak, bapa org j yang btul2 wat apa yang patot..? haha aq sndiri pon xpnah asanya.. huhu..
aku sndiri pon xtau azam aq taon ni, yang pnting bagi aq, apa yang aq achieve taon lps, taon ni kna lbih lagi.. kan..? lau aq dapat 3 org j awek taon lps, taon ni, dpt 6 ckop lah.. haha mlawak aj...

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Great generation..

haha.. byk article yg aq baca ari ni byk yg ckp,this the best generation of England's senior teams since 1964.. tp still takley g jaoh kan.. final score, england kna titik, 1-4 ngn germany.. haha.. aq, ofcos la skong england, tp ble england kna blasah tu, suke pulak aq tgk.. haha.. btw, even england, with player with a very big name, players who play in a very high class league around the world pon kna titik. cube imagine lau mesia.. haha..it does'nt mean that aq xsokong mesia kan.. tp, it's a fact that, lau mesia ximprove quality of playing in the field, wat malu j lau layak k worldcup..
act, td time aq tgk england maen kan.. aq dpt rase yg, ape yg england wat, player mesia pon buat.. such as, malas.. ade certain2 situation yg bola tu nmpk mcm da out, but, the dutch keja gak bola tu, the launch a couter attacs, of cos la.. lau ko xkeja bola tu dr awl, bile org da dpt bola tu br ko nk keja, xkan dpt, ussain bolt pon xley wat gtu.. haha..
lau spae 2 yg lyn malaysia superleague, n epl, diorg akan pasan benda ni.. player malaysia boley improve kalau diorg x terlalu ikot gameplay org laen, tp elaborate sikit diorg punye game..
xgtu..
hehe, cukopla komen aq.. aq pon ase da ngarut byk da kat ats tuh.. da~~

Friday, June 25, 2010

huahuahua

lame da jugak aq xpost ape2 kat cnie.. sowi lah, xde mood nk mnulis... rupe2nye mnulis ni membosankan jugak, walaupon kdg2 kite ase cm mnulis sesuatu, but then, bile nk tulis, everything is kind of nothing.. xde ape2...
hehe, bout her... i need to stop may b... orait, sal worldcup, mklum la aq ni kind of gile bola jugak... haha, well, aq dnga tu dr mulut org yg gile bola.. sa agak2 betol la kot... huuu,
ni aq baru balik dr ttgk brazil vs portugal... well it's kind of an interesting game, 4 me, coz i'm a neutral.. haha..(neutral ke).. aq lau big teams lwn underdog.. aq lg suke tgk underdog tu beat the titans... better.. sbb tu akan tutop mulot bg org2 yg poyo.. hehe, i mean time2 worldcup ni, i can see rmai yg sblum ni xtgk bola, or xknal pon bola tu, keep posting on their 'mukabuku' bout their's fav.. haha.. pastu, yg diorng duk naek2kan sgt tuh name2 yg besau, such as brazil, itali, france, spain(haha is act my fav too hehe).. diorg cm pilih team yg ade nama.. mane ntah ilang semangat bola diorang.. well time awl2 wc ni nk stat ari tuh, ade satu program kat tv yg nk sembang sal bola. diorang ajak anak beranak artis tu pegi sbb nk ckp sal bola... tu x, awl2 lg diorng da ckp, diorg cume tgk bola time worldcup j.. gile ape.. haha.. xmcm bodoh pulak kan bile diorg ckp cmtu.. nmpk sgt cr glamer.. boley bla ah diorg tuh.. hehe

well, france n italy already shown their tickets to their nation... padan muke.. eng defending champion konpem k kuat.. haha.. some says, spain will follow diorg punye footsteps.. i dont think so actly.. hehe.. tp xpe la kite tgk nant..

mexico... not a really big name in football, but they hav a very great talents of players there.. well who thought they'll defeats france.. haha... tgk javier hernandez ( cet, of coz la i puji die cos he is a new man u player kan.. haha).. b4 diz sae knal.. m.u br bli.. stakat tgk video die buat gol, n kitorg ckp, gempak jugak mamat ni... tp bile tgk gem, he plays, well, its true la kan... it is prooved.. maybe he can replace c.r punye tempay.. xgtu.. hehe.. slovenia.. beat italy.. its a very good game.. very good, one of the bez game in this wc 4 me.. sbb, italy never shows their give up on th plays.. tp still italy kalah kan.. hoho.. 1-0, 2-0, 2-1, 3-1, 3-2.. well gempak gak la,, boley tgk 3 gol lam 10 mnt.. great la kan.. hehe...
oke then i ade keje sket, nk mlayan awek baru.. hha.. xde lah.. next post, i'll make it asap... daa~~

Friday, May 21, 2010

heartbreaker...

I heard you're doin' okay
But I want you to know
I'm addic-
I'm addicted to you


I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I try to make you happy
But you left anyway


I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker


Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
Still addic-
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true


I'd run a thousand miles to get to you
Do you think I deserve this
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to treat you good in every way


I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker


How long will I be waiting
Till the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine


I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you


I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker


I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker


nk tau x.. becoz of my feeling sal, aq da lukakan ati org laen.. i dont like diz... it hurt when u left me, but it much hurt when i hurt sumbody else becoz of u...

seriusly, i xnak lukakan ati sape2 pon sal aq nie.. 2 kali.. 2 times i had diz... i dont want it anymore.. juz like i said.. enough is enough... hati aq da ttutup..buat mase skang, aq xnak da idop cmni...

i'm sorry...

I want it I got it I lost it then I found it
If you’re there then I guess I’ll see you when we get there
So we engrave on our graves all the things we want to say
Live and die I don’t know why I’ve got my head up high
My life I feel like I should die I wonder why
I had it all before I had it all that’s why we say
I don’t want to go my life I feel like I should die I wonder why
I had it all and that’s why we say
Hey…..but I don’t want to go
So we shift and we flied for a hundred miles to get here
So why don’t you come round my way and help break this silence
I don’t why I don’t know if I had it even if tried
Live and die I don’t why I’ve got my head up high
My life I feel like I should die I wonder why
I had it all before I had it all that’s why we say
I don’t want to go my life I feel like I should die I wonder why
I had it all and that’s why we say
Hey…..but I don’t want to go