heartbreaker...

I heard you're doin' okay
But I want you to know
I'm addic-
I'm addicted to you


I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I try to make you happy
But you left anyway


I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker


Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
Still addic-
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true


I'd run a thousand miles to get to you
Do you think I deserve this
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to treat you good in every way


I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker


How long will I be waiting
Till the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine


I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you


I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker


I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker


nk tau x.. becoz of my feeling sal, aq da lukakan ati org laen.. i dont like diz... it hurt when u left me, but it much hurt when i hurt sumbody else becoz of u...

seriusly, i xnak lukakan ati sape2 pon sal aq nie.. 2 kali.. 2 times i had diz... i dont want it anymore.. juz like i said.. enough is enough... hati aq da ttutup..buat mase skang, aq xnak da idop cmni...

i'm sorry...

I want it I got it I lost it then I found it
If you’re there then I guess I’ll see you when we get there
So we engrave on our graves all the things we want to say
Live and die I don’t know why I’ve got my head up high
My life I feel like I should die I wonder why
I had it all before I had it all that’s why we say
I don’t want to go my life I feel like I should die I wonder why
I had it all and that’s why we say
Hey…..but I don’t want to go
So we shift and we flied for a hundred miles to get here
So why don’t you come round my way and help break this silence
I don’t why I don’t know if I had it even if tried
Live and die I don’t why I’ve got my head up high
My life I feel like I should die I wonder why
I had it all before I had it all that’s why we say
I don’t want to go my life I feel like I should die I wonder why
I had it all and that’s why we say
Hey…..but I don’t want to go

juz like a pill

I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me
itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes
being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me
ill
You keep makin' me ill

I haven't moved from the spot where you left me
This must be a bad trip
All of the other pills, they were different
Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me
itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes
being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me
ill
You keep makin' me ill

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me
ill
You keep makin' me ill

I can't stay on your life support, there's a
shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine, cuz its making me
itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes
being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me
ill
You keep makin' me ill

salam sume..
guys... diz song.. of coz, juz like my life with her..
i still no moving from the point that she left me...

although still, i cant forget her.. of coz, i have to get going with my life.. now its time 4 me to have a life of my own... i dont think my life now is great.. i live becoz of sumone else.. i keep hoping for sumbody to guide my life.. but 4 sure i cant take that for the whole of my life..
until now, my heart still with her... whenever she is ready, i'll be here for her..
hope she'll read diz...

resistance...

Is your secret safe tonight?
And are we out of sight?
Or will our world come tumbling down?

Will they find our hiding place?
Is this our last embrace?
Or will the walls start caving in?

(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it should've been right
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Let our hearts ignite
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Are we digging a hole?
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
This is outta control

(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
It could never last
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Must erase it fast
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it could've been right
(It could be wrong, could be...)

Love is our resitance
They keep us apart and they won't stop breaking us down
And hold me, our lips must always be sealed

If we live our life in fear
I'll wait a thousand years
Just to see you smile again

Kill your prayers for love and peace
You'll wake the thought police
We can hide the truth inside


(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it should've been right
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Let our hearts ignite
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Are we digging a hole?
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
This is outta control

(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
It could never last
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Must erase it fast
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it could've been right
(It could be wrong, could be...)

Love is our resistance!
They keep us apart and won't stop breaking us down
And hold me, our lips must always be sealed

The night has reached its end
We can't pretend
We must run
We must run
It's time to run

Take us away from here
Protect us from further harm
Resistance!


aq suke lyric lagu ni...
kadang2 aq tpk gak lagu ni d j kna mngena ngn aq...
well guys... i juz hav no one to listen to me... i juz wish i hav sumbody i can always caout to... sumone where i juz can b myself..
aq rindukan die.. sngt.. n tu sgt menyesakan... u know bile kte rindukan sum1 yang xpatot.. sum1 that'll never miz us.. korang tau betapa sakit ati bile jadi cmtuh...
aq rindukan cik julie aq sgt... kalula aq juz ley pusing mase nie..
aq xkan pskan die... terseksa gile bila rase cmni... heart broken..

aq xtau nape..
hr ni aq rase cm aq terlalu rindukan die..
sal aq duduk j, aq teringatkan die..
seksa idop aq..
n td time aq on9 ym die on... lepas skian lame die xon...
aq cm xtau nk watpe da...
aq on, aq off, aq on...
mcm org gle..
aq xtau nk watpe..
even aq wat invisible, still aq tgk die ad kat ctu.
i wish i juz can buzz her, chat wif her, pretend that nothing ever happens between us two..
tp..
yes i befriend wif great people, but everyone yg i try to talk bout diz, they dont mak me feel better, but worst... they start complaining bout my feeling.. i dont feel better.. its have been for months since this happen, but 4 me, its juz like yesterday...
my love 4 her cm x pnah luntur pon...
makin truk bile aq xley wat pe2...if i hav a fren yg aq boley mnangis dpn die.. tell him or her bout my feeling...
but now, i juz haz diz blog with nobody read it, where i can tell it everythngs..
i luv her so much... if ican juz hav her back...
i need her more than anything.. coz she is everythings to me...

mati hidup kembali..

semekom sume.. setelah seminggu aq xtgk pon blog aq ni.
korang sume mesti penah dnga lagu mati hidup kembali, butterfingers kan? layan gak lagu nie.aq suggest la utk korang yang nga frust cm aq skang.. hoho... eyt gang... sape2 yg bace nie jgn lupe bg sokongan kat skuad thomas kite yg k berentap ngan china petang nie...
set k? 4 me i think that chong wei, will beat lin dan, n our 1st double akan beat china's 1st double... but then yang akan sangkut kemungkinan besar 3 yg terakhir tuh.. haaa... tu la yg ite arapkan.. mintak2 choon han ley beat chen jin... tu j yang aq mntk..

ikot ati ak... byk yg aq nk cte sal aq yg nga merana nie... tp lam next post ek..

my song to her....

I don't want this moment
To ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you
I wait here forever just to,
To see you smile
'Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

Through it all
I've made my mistakes
I'll stumble and fall
But I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken
Forever and now
And pieces of memories
Fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so
I won't let this go
'Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

On the streets, where I walked alone
With nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of you're eyes
It falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of you're eyes
It falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find
What you will find
What you will find
What you will find
What you will find

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

its over...

its over...
well cte sal cinta aq, smpai cnie j..
no more stories bout her... cet, aq brani jamin, aq ckp j tuh...
lau aq tulis pon xde sape kesah kan...
siot aje... aq cdey gle bile ckp ngn die td...
she has no feeling..
ape aq ckp, ape aq ty... die ley wat lek j...
aq xphm... aq syg die sgt2..
althouth aq dda settle kan ngn die, but still ati aq xley trime... aq rasse cm nk nages... i can do nothing..
she still loves me when we broke up.. she said that, but skrng ni? sape la aq agknye bg die... i need to learn that she is history... no more her in my life...
i dont know how long it will take...

god, help me..

hey.. tetiba j aq rase rindu kat x ak tu... si julie... bile da mule rndu owg yg x n xenah rindu kite kan... meraca jiwa.. smpai thp hati aq jd perit.. aq egt bila da balik kg ni lega sket ati aq.. ley aq lupeka die skit2.. but then... sume sal die, aq nmpak makin terang...
silap aq, aq g cntct die balik..
tu la maslah aq..
kalau aq xhafal no die dulu... skang aq mayb da xd ape2 da..
sng j aq delete her number... tp skang bratus kali aq delete pon still da same.. aq xley lr dr ati aq yg nk cube pjuk die balik walaupon aq tau yang die xkan balik da...
she will never look back at me.. never...

byk sbenanye yg aq nk cite kat cnie... aq pon da stat keje.. hoho, part time j.. tekanan keje aq tmbah lak ngn tekanan kat uma, dulu aq ade die ntuk aq ckp pe2 pon... skang, aq rase lonely gle.. aq xde tmpat aq nk story.. xde tempt len nk aq luahkan perasaan aq.. aq lagi rela xbalik kg n idop ngn member kat sana... sbb die aq xleh duk sorn..
even time aq nga studi pon die mesti ganggu ati aq... aq sayang sgt kat die... kenapa la dunia ni xmcm ape yg kite tgk kat movies or some kind of daram yg ume ending mesti jd bek... asl lam movie, walau ape pon jd kat hero n heroin tu, but then last skali mesti diorng bersama balik.. aq nk sgt cmtu...

aq ni sebenarnye seornag yg sgt dahagakan kasih syg... n tu j ape yg aq nk.. aq cume nk love yg aq dpt go on with... aq bukan nk idop cara aq.. tp aq idop lam kasih syg... aq rase dr kecik lg aq nk xdpt kasih syg... bukan aq nk doubt parents aq k ape.. juz aq d feeling yg aq xnk share kat org len.. sume ni aq pendam j.. xde sape yg tau lau aq mngangis skalipon...

smalam yang hangat~~

Yo, Assalamu'alaikum smua, xsangka ka? ari j aq da post 3 topics kat cnie... well, aq nk bukannye jenis yg sabar.. actually, aq ade satu benda yang da dkat 5 bulan aq pendam... agak lame la... lau nk kkre... ni sume cte sal a girl yang aq syg sgt kat die... i'm hoping she'll read this, but, kalu nk d pk kan.. tp mesti lau die bace msti dye ckp yang aq ni jnis yg xphm bhs..
well let say, her name is julie, dak perak n blaja kat melaka...
yes.. aq lau nk kire byk gak gal yang aq suke.. n most of it, aq akn cube smpai dpt..
srius, lau korang knal aq, korg akn ckp aq ni xensem... hehe.. kepala pon asyik botak j...
i knal die kat fb.. n mase tu, i hrp ape2 pon kat die... iase la kalu muke ni da ensem kan.. huuu... i engat lg i ygo die kat fb tu, n she gives me a good respond... huhu...
1st, i juz pk nk bkawan ngn die... when i strt stalking her page, her photos, then i realize that she is my frens gal..so i xde hopes anything from her... juz wanna be fren... hehe.. i mntak die punye ym id, n she gives me.. then on the same day, i mntak die punye phne number.. n prisely she gave it..
for sure la kan, sape xsuke... bg aq, dei da cntik, juz like da gal i always dream of...
aq start text her... i mule rapat ngn die... call her..
i engat lg mase 1st time i call die.. pergh, bdebar gle wa ckp lu... huuu... n die pon oke j... so strt mlm tu i slalu call... everynight... sumtimes, satu mlm i tpup 30.. ye la.. bgn pg call... abes class petang, call, mlm b4 tdo call...
jrg skali, aq call ckp ngn die smpai xabes kredit aq.. member aq, urm let say qiqi, smpai bising sbb aq mase tu, smpai thp nk call member pon xboley... serius, mase tu, aq punye perasaan, xyah ckp berbunga abes... shel alway tell me bout my fren, her bf... diorang d probs... she said that, min, her bf, skang da x mcm dulu.. slalu gado... xcntact die.. tp stilll xnk lepaskan die.. lame jugak aq ngn die cm tu.. listen to her probs... n n that time she told almost anything bout her.. i pon same... mase tu die j la tmpat i luahkan perasaan i...
smpai la i strt to call her syg...
she realize it.. n die bg respond.. when she said die ngn bf die da abes... i proposed her to b my gal..
yes...
die accept.. skang aq pk, bodonye aq mntak mase tu.. supposedly, aq tgg lebey lame ntuk die... xgune aq tggu die skang...
sambung cte balik... aq kapel ngn die pas raye, bulan 9... bulan 10 aq g jumpe die kat melaka, aq egt time aq nk p jumpa die byk gle dugaan jadik... b4 da day aq jnj ngn die, rum8 aq tuduh aq curik wet die.. xpsl2 jd kes pakguard.. aq supposedly xley tgglkan campus aq lam sehari due.. tp aq p gk sbb aq rindu sgt kat die..
n its my 1st date with her..
aq travel dr jb smpai la melaka.. ride nek moto lc aq... ley tecabut pinggang aq sakitnye...
da la travel sowg2..
hehe.. gile aq ckp ko. aq ajak member sume xnk p..
hehe..
maka pegila aq kat kota melaka tu.. smpai melaka, aq tau jln nk kuar higghway j.. yg len aq xtau..
aq gerak j...
jnj tmpat len, tempt len yg aq smpai.. aq jumpe la die... time rtu b'debar gle siot...
xde org tau perasaan aq mase tuh.. ye lah.. die la puteri ati ak... aq syg gle kat die... aq jmpe die.. n tgh2 jln tu, die kiz aq... time tu aq ty dye, btol k die syg aq.. yes.. die kate..
time tu, aq rase aq la owg yg paling epi kat ats muke bumi nie...
kitorng g tgk muvie... pastu g mkn...
aq egt mase gnk g mkn tu, ujan, so aq berenti kat ade satu bgnunan ni..
time tu kitorg da basah..
n aq amek sweater aq, aq pkaikan kat die.. n mase tu la.. we talk bout us... die kate, die still xley lupekan x die.. 5 taon die ngn x die... aq tau. aq knal x die tu.. die suh aq sabar, nk lupekan x die amek mase.. aq xkesa.. aq tau aq syg kat die.. n die ckp die sg kat aq, althought time tu die still terengt kat x die, tp at least die tau yg aq sygkat die sgt.. smpai skang aq efgt ayat die... aq cte sal aq nye istory sal kapel.. n die ckp yg die xkn tggl kan. aq... bhgia gle aq time tu..
aq da tutup ati aq.. ati aku ade die j.. she's da one.. aq pk da xde org len pas die..
tp aq frust gle ble die strt jaohkan diri dr aq.. bulan 12.. aq abeh final n result kuar.. die pon same..then die gtau aq yg mama die suh clash.. i hope there'll be any other ways kan, aq xnk putus ngn die sbb tu.. xberbaloi.. then die berkeras.. ok la aq ckp, t8 five kan.. aq nk tgg die smpai bile2.. smai die balik kat aq..
n 4 sure lah, smpai skang aq tunggu die.. aq xtau smpai bile...
ble da clash, aq egt ley la aq juz jd kwn die.. n aq xmo lost cntct ngn die.. but, kitorg slalu gado.. die strt post kat facebook bout tekanan..rimas la ape la... sume tu ntuk aq.. die cm da xnk cntact pon ngn aq.. die xnk aq tgg die lg... pastu aq stalk fb die.. aq studi kot kat fb die. die cm da ade org len.. sape xfrust... aq syg gle kat die.. n sampai skang... aq xtau da.. aq xtau nk watpe.. kekadang tu ade gak pk nk sakitkan diri aq ni.. aq kekadang mntk aq xcdent k ape k.. juz nk tarik perhatian die.. tp aq tau sume tu cm xde gue... sume yg tau cte aq, ask me to forget her..
tp susah.. aq nk die balik.. aq syg sgt kat die...

arghhh, season ni kna tutop mulot..

liverpool kalah la pulak.. damn gler... hoho... tu sume gara2 gerald la bg 1st goal yang agak bodo.. hoho.. lau die mng kan man u da potong chelsea skang... well, i also known as man u biggest fan lama kalangn member2 i.. so, sbb mulot i yang agak xberagak ni, man u mng j, tgk sape brani lwn mulut.. hehe.. ala2 ce stephen chow tu pulak.. hehe.. althouh man u is winning, chesea tetap diatas.. haha..
suke pulak aq manaip nie... sumetimes feel like i'm talking to sumbody walaupon hakikatnye, aq ckp sowg diri.. hehe
smbung cte td, kite tgk chelsea nk jd ape next week, ane tau ade miracles k... ahakz.. xgtu... to all man u fan dunt uu'all worry, coz sumtimes, there will be a miracle, n lau x pon, ape slhnye kite bg j kat budak2 pegang duu.. hehe

hellop guys...

hey ya...
nothing to say in my first post... sumtimes, kite ade rase cm nk menulis kan... nk coretkan ape yang tersirat kat ati.. thats what i thought..
sumtimes i fell lonely, there no one for me to talk to... to share my probs... friends see me as a very happy person... org yang slalu happy-go-lucky kan.. cause, sape yg knal i akan tau yg i ni jnis yg susa nk duk diam lau ngn member.. mcm2 benda yg i kacau... my friends always see me as sumone yg memang xder probs... huhu... but, there's a lot of things in my mind... i pon xtau nape...sbb bende2 ni sume, i xboley tdo... some of u might be college boys/girls, then u knowlah kan care idop... lau ngn member2, katil single tu pon ley tdo smpai 2 3 org... tp i xpna... i xboley tdo tmpat len, coz everythings on my mind akan keluar mase tuh... i'll keep thinking of this, that... then, i'm thinking of a place that i can get rid of this... i once wrote diaries, but these days, diaries is no more privacy..
hoho.. u guys might wondering kan, althought i ckp yg i xde ape nk tulis lam 1st post ni, tp berjela gak la i type... ok lah..
smapi cnie dulu utk ma 1st post kayh...